I have been putting off buying scales for years as I was too scared to know just how heavy I was getting.
I could see the changes in my face, the double chin I couldn’t hide in photos anymore, no “flattering angles” that worked anymore. My clothes were getting tighter, or straight up could not get over my belly. I would cry in changing rooms, or any time I had to look at myself in the mirror. I still feel sad every time I see how big I’ve gotten.
123.5kg. That was the number I saw when I stepped onto the scales for the first time in 3 years. The last time I checked, I was 95kg. Still obese, but trim compared to my weight now.
123kg is not healthy for my 162cm frame. I googled the conversion and was shocked that it was 280lb (on a 5”4 frame). My body just can’t hold that weight anymore. I get tired walking to the store next to my apartment.
I want more out of life. I want to stop crying every time I pick out an outfit. I want to feel comfortable in a tshirt and shorts. I want to explore my city without getting ankle and knee pain.
I’m ready to change because I don’t have another choice – to continue in my ways would be to accept an early death and I don’t want that.
I’m posting this to solidify my choice to change my life, and to keep myself accountable. Reading your posts here have made me inspired (and very jealous). I’m excited to finally change my life!